blessing.

today, i was blessed. incredibly so. i achieved a dream- all state. i'm so happy, so proud of myself, so proud of everyone else who achieved a dream today. it's an awesome thing.

god really blesses people.

i don't deserve this. no. i didn't work as hard as some of the kids who placed under me. it's based on chance. i was lucky- i was blessed.

so this is what's next:
1. be thankful.
2. not let anything go to my head- this is only a great blessing.
3. practice more.
4. pray. a lot.

because, after all, even if i don't happen to make a career of music, this is still a gift- a god-given gift- and i should use it as such. and i'll pray about it. how should i use this gift? is there something i can do?

i have to work hard to be an example. i'm such a failure. it's even just the silly things. things that i shouldn't do anyway. i can do this. i can live my life for him. i'll be happier that way, i'll feel better about it all.

"be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is god's will for you in christ jesus."
- 1 thessalonians 5:16-18

thank You.